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hiking up to tenaja falls on the first day of 2013

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in the forest a few weeks ago; these are all digital/unedited.



in movement:

(you may need to open these two in a separate window for the animation to work)

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recent watercolors

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here are a couple polaroids that i took this morning:

 

these look much better in person, scout's honor. i'll be posting some digital photos in the next few days, as well as a ton of drawings and other recent photo projects all throughout the month of february.

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three things:

1. i'm sorry i've been terrible at updating this blog. i don't know why, but every time i start to think about posting any of my new pictures and artwork and poems here i remember how behind i am and instead of even trying to catch up i put it off until i'm even more behind. it never stops.

i don't know what's wrong with me. 

2. i shot my first wedding recently, a beautiful thing in morro bay, and i wasn't expecting to feel so many emotions in the process. the worst part is that i don't even know how to put any of those emotions into words. i can't explain.

i don't know what's wrong with me.

3. i don't know why i'm writing this here, because it's definitely personal, and definitely not something i would want just anyone, particularly a certain someone, to see, but: 

i miss being able to say "i want to go home" without home being you. or actually, i really just miss when it was okay for home to be you. because i miss you. and i love you. and i wish things were better. i wish i knew what i wanted when you knew what you wanted, and vice versa.

i don't know what's wrong with me.

*(this post will self destruct really soon - idk when, man.)

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here is a drawing that i did last month of pattie boyd and george harrison. it's based on this photograph.

i miss drawing a lot. i mean, i still do quite a bit of doodles and quick sketches and i've been starting to paint again, but i just always feel like i'm not drawing enough. i guess i feel like that about a lot of things. i never do anything that i really want to do.

in other news, i don't know if i ever mentioned it on this blog, but i'm part of the juvenilia team now. you can see all the stuff that i make for them here. also, i'm working on photo posts for this blog, so those should start up again fairly soon.

i hope you are all having nice days and lovely lives. sometimes i wish i could hug everyone on the internet, even the people that i don't know, so i wrap my arms around my monitor and pretend like i'm doing just that. sometimes i wish i could hug everyone in the world, even the people i don't know, so i wrap my arms around my sister's globe and pretend like i'm doing just that.

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poor little blog! i've been slacking and i know it. i haven't abandoned this space completely though; i'll be back very soon, my sweets.