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three things:

1. i'm sorry i've been terrible at updating this blog. i don't know why, but every time i start to think about posting any of my new pictures and artwork and poems here i remember how behind i am and instead of even trying to catch up i put it off until i'm even more behind. it never stops.

i don't know what's wrong with me. 

2. i shot my first wedding recently, a beautiful thing in morro bay, and i wasn't expecting to feel so many emotions in the process. the worst part is that i don't even know how to put any of those emotions into words. i can't explain.

i don't know what's wrong with me.

3. i don't know why i'm writing this here, because it's definitely personal, and definitely not something i would want just anyone, particularly a certain someone, to see, but: 

i miss being able to say "i want to go home" without home being you. or actually, i really just miss when it was okay for home to be you. because i miss you. and i love you. and i wish things were better. i wish i knew what i wanted when you knew what you wanted, and vice versa.

i don't know what's wrong with me.

*(this post will self destruct really soon - idk when, man.)